I finally saw it… AMY. 10ish thoughts/learnings from watching the Doc.

I have no idea where to start. An experience of extreme dualities that’s for sure.

1.a Great and moving to see some old school footage of Amy, family days, youth orchestra days, being goofy with friends etc etc

b. Not so sure about the clips. seeing as she had no say in what the clips were used for.

2. a. Warmed my heart to hear interviews with her nearest and dearest i.e her 2 best friends from way back exclaiming their love and admiration for Amy and her endeavours. 

b. The blame that was subtly laid on a few’s backs through these interviews wasn’t so nice to see.

3.a Super inspiring to me as a singer and songwriter her confidence and love in the craft. 

b. how quickly the music industry and culture can turn a bright spark into an addict of unsavoury substances.

4a. Love is beautiful, powerful, inspiring and far reaching. 

b. Love can be manipulated into accompanying misery in the name of solidarity.

5.a All families have a past. 

b. People that live in glass houses, shouldn’t throw stones i.e if anyone’s family past get’s into the hands of filmmakers there is always blame to lay, just depends on which way the slant leans.

6.a Crack is wack 

b. Crack is still wack… Stop with the comeback y’all, in the past month I have heard it mentioned way too lightly way too often. Brighton needs some TLC on the whole. Cocaine will get boring eventually everyone!

7a. Heartbreak can be a beautiful thing that can benefit mankind.

b. If something has such a positive impact broken, why try to put it all back together again? Amy cut herself too deep trying to mend herself and Blake back together.

8a. The media are OUT OF CONTROL. 

b. They must be stopped. Where are the privacy laws?! Where are the people fighting to keep safety first! Who are these rats who can stand by and mock the mentally unwell into a ‘money shot’ for the disgusting Murchocian media.

I love her all the more after getting an insight into her personality and surroundings. I know she was a drug addict, and I know she was an alcoholic, I know she smoked weed and I know she was reckless with her commitments and time. I do believe everyone around her tried to save her as best they could, and I do believe that both of her parents wanted the best for her. From the documentary it seemed like she had suffered too much damage in a short space of time that she was always going to be a young departure, but I do believe that there is more to this particular story. Too much money flying around the place for it to be mess-free I’m afraid!

I remember where I was when I heard, it was my mum’s birthday and we are both massive fans. I cried and still cry about the sadness of her passing, and believe she had a ton more to give if only she would have pulled through her twenties. 

Grateful is not the word, I am honoured to have existed at the same time as her. Everything I have learned from her fall I will take forward with me and keep keeping an eye on my nearest and dearest as best I can. 

p.s Thankyou Amy Winehouse for your truth, beauty, perspective, heart and art! 

August Album & Mixtape RINSE – jmsn & Mick Jenkins

if you don’t know…now you know.

If you love RnB – Think a more intricately produced JT Album!

One thing I do love about being in the UK as oppose to NYC is the amount of new (and interesting) music that is floating around restoring my faith in the Industry. Obviously I LOVE New York and love living in Brooklyn when I can, but in terms of being a bit daring or a bit out of the box with music it doesn’t seem to be as heralded as over here, well Brighton specifically.

GET COMFORTABLE AND DRINK WATER.

DOIT.

I’m Bout it!

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*Entrepreneurial Inspiration!* Ryan Leslie. Hot off MIDEM.

This interview is truly something to be aware of if you are looking to go INDIE in any area of business.

Each penny is important and bringing back real life gratitude and prowess counts for a lot.

Easy to forget in our ever enclosing world!

If you read this message and want to collaborate or network or connect in anyway comment below and let’s make it happen!

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Express yoself! Love, Cella P.s + Tips that may or may not work… Ha ;P

Start

plane

stream of thoughts

words

Opportunity Knocks.

Freedom in Open

expression

Receive.

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10 Realistic tips from me to you.

(Musical / Singing / Creative / Freedom )

1. Eye contact whilst meeting and conversing. Trust me. I know it can be scary, but buckle up kid, life is terrifying!

2. Speak from a Smile.

3. Sing from a Smile (or at least an inner smile).

4. Listen to surroundings, that is all that is relevant.

5. If you feel that you should do something, Do it.

6. Push through anxieties for new experiences. Do not believe everything you think, but do pay attention to how you feel whilst contemplating said thought. You know if you know!

7. Push forwards! In every sense of the word. If you feel down and out, push forwards to the next step and focus only on that next step.

7a) ALSO Literally at Jam nights or Open mics or choir meetings or theatre rehearsals! Do it, If you are looking to catch an organiser’s eye do not be afraid to be a tad more in their face than you or I would naturally feel comfortable with. We all have extremely short attention spans nowadays so there could be a chance the organiser or MC has or will forget about you. Even if you know them personally!

8) Let go and kiss all of the frogs! It really doesn’t matter if ideas suck; Think of them as the frogs on your path to the Prince or Princess or whatever you’ll find at the end of your rainbow!

9) Sing/ Play/ Create/ everyday! One way or another.

10) Daily practise! < This guy!!!!

If you want to be kept in the loop with all of the great inspirational learnings and resources i find along my quest for freedom comment on this post and I will put you on a fwding list!

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Summer Yogi pit stop. UK

After dipping my toes into at the start of the ‘Summer’ with Smile, I picked up sticks for West coast adventures in search of sunshine, knowledge and musical nourishment.

Teaching Yoga to complete beginners ( and family members with various ailments) gave me a lot to think about when preparing the lessons. It was a pleasure getting to know my students; their bodies gave me excellent scope and experience to create interactive sessions. We are always aiming to reconnect our Selves with our natural state of joy and compassion.

(Yoga can help bring to light habitual patterns including self-addressing i.e negative scolding towards oneself  and physical preferences i.e left and right side heavy which can cause poor posture and alignment)

I got the chance to study Kundalini Yoga under Tej in Hollywood…

(‘Nine Treasures Yoga was founded by Tej Kaur Khalsa, a longtime teacher of Kundalini yoga and a student of Yogi Bhajan for over three decades.’ ) 

I found Tej’s classes extremely empowering and invigorating; after feeling like performing 1000s of sun salutations and Vinyasas in the past few years. Kundalini Yoga uses the breath and voice for chanting and opening up the front of the spine and uses small repetitive movements mobilising the arms and back of spine.

I was taken aback by the lack of movement. I am used to from my Astanga and Vinyasa classes, even Hatha and Yin move more and use Asana differently to Kundalini. Kundalini really is an energetic mover as oppose to an oxygen mover. Do not underestimate the movements that are required for these classes though, Chanting and performing some of the repetitive movements for a 3 minute track will cause you to ‘feel the burn’ Sneaky!

I moved to Venice Beach after Hollywood in search of Beach life and Yogi vibes.

I found Yoga Nest and made the most of their amazing intro special and for about 10 days became a part of the family. I learnt the importance of pace and engagement from the beautiful and warm teachers and was lucky enough to take part in a sound bath accompanied vinyasa class. The resonance and vibrations from the singing bowls provided a thickness in the air on top the heat that energised us all through a particularly challenging sequence.

From here I migrated East to get back on board with Daya Yoga studio and to relieve my creative itch by reconnecting with my producers and musicians in Brooklyn.

New York is a place where practising Yoga off the mat is just as ground breaking and uplifting as an asana class.

The Yamas and Niyamas are important ground rules to follow and some of my luck is proof that if you keep the handy 10 in your mind somewhere, as you go about your interactions with New Yorkers, they will recognise the integrity of you.

Everyone goes to the City or stays in the City for a reason and it is easy to forget along the way to living for that reason what the reason for living in The City actually is.

Life! Real-Life experiences that are unmatched by suburban comforts and ‘living comfortably’ without roaches and rats.

Speaking of living comfortably…

…at my last place in Bushwick, BK down in the basement (yes there were Roaches and Mice…) I was lucky enough to share the bottom end of a Duplex with a Yoga practitioner who had been teaching for 20 years! I also had a housemate who was very keen to practise and learn more so I was able to learn and pass on knowledge in our little mini melting pot of Yogis. This helped me keep up my home practise and keep up my teaching hat.

off the mat behind the mic

Living life as a Yogi and trying to live as authentically as possible has definitely had an impact on my body and my creative mind.

Through surrendering and letting go whilst jamming and tracking ideas for songs and melodies I was able to relieve a sticky point in my Jaw. Literally!

No word of a lie…

…after my first session with a new producer, I return home sit on the sofa to chill and all of a sudden my Jaw goes *CLICK* and there I go, left side of my jaw unlocked!

I am a chronic teeth clencher and carry mad tension in my jaw so for it to just relax and let go like that after my shit hot session; something in my mind must of relaxed. My Throat chakra must of had a moment of spinning perfectly!

To this day the left side is still looser and open, but the right side knows where it’s headed now, I’m optimistic. ha.

The point is…

…your physical body and mind and chakras and all of that are all interlinked and tensions that are being held in the mind will no doubt be held somewhere in the body.

Face, Neck, Shoulders, Chest, Diaphragm, Back, Hips, Hamstrings, Feet.. even hands and fingers!

Do you have any questions you’d like to put to me about Yoga?

Obviously Im not going to be able to answer everything but I can answer in relation to my own practise and maybe be able to point you in the direction of the answer you seek,

No question too silly!

#YogiPost Ahimsa – CHECK. Satya – Here we go…

Last week I kept Ahimsa in mind a lot more than I initially thought I would.

I noticed just by observing others and myself day to day that the internal narration that CONSTANTLY runs my mind started to soften. Tone wise. I realise that the default tone of voice in my head towards myself is preettyyyy aggressive. After all these years of Yoga and travelling and general fun stuff how can my Self still be running the show this way?

Despite all of the inner tellings off I gave myself from both sides of the crazy fence, External stuff started to subside. I am not giving myself such a hard time about what eat and am trusting my inner discernment. I also noticed that my patience with people and life in general improved this week and generally it was a week where I felt comfortable in ‘levelling down’ instead of intensely striving for that ‘level up’ feeling.

my music of the week.  Don't understand the language but I trust that it's saying something!
my music of the week.
Don’t understand the language but I trust that it’s saying something!

I am always anti physical violence, but feel so much more comfortable in expressing that notion as we are now moving into ….

Now… Satya – Truthfulness

This one, to me, feels like it will be easier. (which probably means, I have no idea what I am talking about haha).

I only say this as I have always been hyper sensitive to participating in things that do not line up with my Dharma or my purpose. I am not someone who believes in the whole ‘non quitting’ thing. If something feels bad or wrong or at opposition to the inner voice get out of there man!

Most recently a change I have implemented out of nowhere is becoming a vegetarian. It slowly came about in the last year completely naturally just from me listening to the inner voice. There are still some things for sure that I am having trouble clearing out, but I know that admitting these things goes a long way so I have hope for me yet!

For a much better explanation of Satya go here!

p.s http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/12/the-damaging-effects-of-an-inauthentic-life-how-to-change-it/

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#YogiPost – Let’s start from the top shall we? TED talk woo

Full Moon in Scorpio means going deeper into the depths and May is my month to start Intentionally practising

‪#‎Yogaoffthemat‬ ‪#‎allday

Starting with the ‪#‎Yamas‬, where else?

The Yamas could read as beautiful promises to make to one another.

That would be lovely 🙂

With non- violence (Ahimsa) and truthfulness (Satya) as the first 2 Yamas, the tone is set for the kind of life Yogis aim for.

http://www.breadandyoga.com/newsite/blog/yoga-off-the-mat-yamas-and-niyamas

This week ‪#‎Ahimsa‬
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I found when starting to pay attention to my inner narrative I was quite taken aback. I couldn’t believe I had gone so long without actually taking a moment to analyse the kind of talk I was directing towards myself and others. I have always been quite a deep thinker about the world around me, and it had never dawned on me to analyse the language I use internally.

Turns out, I am pretty mean to me! Which was making me mean towards others and then that was then coming back around to be mean to me about myself being mean to others so as you can see that is way.too.much.

And breathe.

Ahimsa has helped me take more responsibility for the chat and crap that I believe in my head. My sense of compassion is stronger and I love it! After the little word I had with myself I realised what is inside is reflected outside, I am finding it easier to keep my feet on the ground. It really is very nice to be nice, so why not give it a go at every single opportunity you have?

Try to tune into the voice that may have been pushed under by the bully boy coach type voice. Or if you have no idea what I mean. Try to create a new lingo for yourself. Maybe try to pick up one new positive adjective a day, and use it as much as possible, to the point where you may even sound silly and it might turn into a bit of laugh! You never know, you might spread some silliness and before you know it we will all be smiling at each other willy nilly! Dun Dun Dun!!! IMG_2133-MOTION

Really fab article on incorporating Ahimsa to your Asana (Posture – Physical) practise.

http://www.huggermugger.com/blog/2015/practice-ahimsa-mat/

p.s Watch this very interesting TED talk…

Smile!

it is legitimately contagious!

My dance with Vegetables – DIY 1

In the last year or so I have, little by little, fallen into vegetarianism and dipped my toe into Vegan life.

It could be something to do with my attempt at Yogic living, but I haven’t consciously decided, as such, to officially denounce meat. I have, a few times, officially denounced dairy, but I am learning as time passes how difficult it can be to cut that all the way out, especially only having rediscovered custard as an adult in the last month or so. Ha! (i am currently trawling the net for the best non dairy custard recipe so if I find a good one, I will share. Tried and Tested, I can assure you!)

I am having a LOT of fun cooking and being inventive with food choices and spots to eat at. Naturally, I aim for Organic wherever possible and lucky for me in the area I mostly work and live it is very accessible and affordable for me to eat very well. Almost too accessible sometimes!

This afternoon I had a hankering for some pasta so I whipped up a very basic meal but added my trusted spices and coconut oil to zazz it up. I decided to combine with black coffee, because, why not 🙂

Ingredients –

coconut oil

Himalayan pink salt

black pepper

juice from 1 lemon

1x red onion

2x garlic cloves

1/2 yellow pepper

Spinach

Long stemmed broccoli

Vine cherry tomatoes

Wholewheat pasta

All natural sugar free pasta sauce (I chose spicy and locally made)

Cayenne Pepper

Cinnamon

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I will, every now and again, share the kinds of things I whip up quick-style when I am hungry at home.

Also look out for big-ups for my favourite spots around town. So many good food places in Brighton we really are blessed!!

Life Lessons @ 25

Lessons I’ve learnt/ am trying to learn.

1. Fortune favours the Brave.

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2. Patience is ALWAYS necessary, even when you think you don’t have time, You do!

3. E-nough of the bullshit excuses. If you want to do something do it, if you don’t, don’t. If you are late, be late and maybe give a short sentence as to why but don’t go on about it. No1 cares, what’s done is done. Build from the ground up if you’ve made a mistake or fucked something up, don’t keep on about it, I know you may think that by this excessive explanation it shows that you really are remorseful but all you’re doing is wasting further time, energy and USING TOO MANY WORDS. giphy

4. Stop talking. All.the.time. i struggle with this one and find I either use way too little words and love to go for as long as possible without talking or I can’t stop! I’ve found the joy in losing myself in what another person is saying rather than trying to figure out my response before they stop talking. It always surprises me that if I halt my preperation and hang on in there for a few more sentences more often than not my response or understanding of the conversation moves into a whole other place!

5. ‘You don’t have to believe everything you think.
We’ve been programmed. Wake up, we miss you. – Erykah Badu.

Do not be precious over your thoughts or feelings, and also don’t be too attached to who you think you are or what your qualities consist of. There are no limits to whom you could be and you are who you think you are! Right now you may feel like you are someone who isn’t very good at meeting new people or being brave but if you just do it, you never know you could be bloody brilliant!

6. Remember that everything is perfect even when it may not initially seem that way. Me and my friend Sophie have been on this ‘It’s fine’ flex for a couple of years now. We say at the end of everything, ‘but it’s fine though’ BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS. There isn’t much that isn’t actually fine if you just get over yourself and stop letting your emotions make you their bitch.

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7. Share your gifts!

Poetry/ Music / Writing are my special interests and only I have my experiences so why not pass them along, they may help someone else believe in themselves.

Yikes, I have gone on a bit haven’t I! Oops, oh well.

Here is a random little poem I wrote at the end of last year.

Polishing

off

2014

I am trying

to establish

some routine.

2015

can trust all

will be

enseamed

Imminently.

For I entrust oneself

a brand new scheme

wherby I,

allow myself

to work at my dream.

Be.

Song of the day! Countdown to 2015. Don’t look back in Anger, Love.

I managed to sit still long enough today to watch a BBC Alba doc about Amy Winehouse. It saw her perform at some random Irish festival and showed a really cool interview where she spoke extremely freely.

It was amazing to hear her talking about all the greats like Sarah Vaughn, Monk, Ella, Kim Burrell and Carleen Anderson. Amy’s knowledge, sheer curiosity and wonder about music seemed infectious. I would have loved the chance to chill and chat with her. (Obv). She was listing off, literally, all of my faves.

Specifically Amy gushed around Carleen’s version of the Oasis track ‘Don’t look back in Anger’.

I owe Amy an thankyou for reminding me of this bangin cover. At the moment this track carries a heavy significance to lots of feelings.

Especially after such crazy times in 2013/2014.

Carleen really gives this track a different edge, and I LOVE IT. The story is moving and her choices are perfection.

I know lots of people around me have been feeling a bit unhinged the last couple of years, but since being back from NY my peeps vibes have changed! Everyone seems content and chilled after losing their shit for the last 18 months haha.

2015 is going to be the one! Oh YES. Get ready!

So all my loves, Don’t look back in Anger.

You hear me say?

Luis Enrique Rivera Cuyar