I finally saw it… AMY. 10ish thoughts/learnings from watching the Doc.

I have no idea where to start. An experience of extreme dualities that’s for sure.

1.a Great and moving to see some old school footage of Amy, family days, youth orchestra days, being goofy with friends etc etc

b. Not so sure about the clips. seeing as she had no say in what the clips were used for.

2. a. Warmed my heart to hear interviews with her nearest and dearest i.e her 2 best friends from way back exclaiming their love and admiration for Amy and her endeavours. 

b. The blame that was subtly laid on a few’s backs through these interviews wasn’t so nice to see.

3.a Super inspiring to me as a singer and songwriter her confidence and love in the craft. 

b. how quickly the music industry and culture can turn a bright spark into an addict of unsavoury substances.

4a. Love is beautiful, powerful, inspiring and far reaching. 

b. Love can be manipulated into accompanying misery in the name of solidarity.

5.a All families have a past. 

b. People that live in glass houses, shouldn’t throw stones i.e if anyone’s family past get’s into the hands of filmmakers there is always blame to lay, just depends on which way the slant leans.

6.a Crack is wack 

b. Crack is still wack… Stop with the comeback y’all, in the past month I have heard it mentioned way too lightly way too often. Brighton needs some TLC on the whole. Cocaine will get boring eventually everyone!

7a. Heartbreak can be a beautiful thing that can benefit mankind.

b. If something has such a positive impact broken, why try to put it all back together again? Amy cut herself too deep trying to mend herself and Blake back together.

8a. The media are OUT OF CONTROL. 

b. They must be stopped. Where are the privacy laws?! Where are the people fighting to keep safety first! Who are these rats who can stand by and mock the mentally unwell into a ‘money shot’ for the disgusting Murchocian media.

I love her all the more after getting an insight into her personality and surroundings. I know she was a drug addict, and I know she was an alcoholic, I know she smoked weed and I know she was reckless with her commitments and time. I do believe everyone around her tried to save her as best they could, and I do believe that both of her parents wanted the best for her. From the documentary it seemed like she had suffered too much damage in a short space of time that she was always going to be a young departure, but I do believe that there is more to this particular story. Too much money flying around the place for it to be mess-free I’m afraid!

I remember where I was when I heard, it was my mum’s birthday and we are both massive fans. I cried and still cry about the sadness of her passing, and believe she had a ton more to give if only she would have pulled through her twenties. 

Grateful is not the word, I am honoured to have existed at the same time as her. Everything I have learned from her fall I will take forward with me and keep keeping an eye on my nearest and dearest as best I can. 

p.s Thankyou Amy Winehouse for your truth, beauty, perspective, heart and art! 


Express yoself! Love, Cella P.s + Tips that may or may not work… Ha ;P



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Opportunity Knocks.

Freedom in Open




10 Realistic tips from me to you.

(Musical / Singing / Creative / Freedom )

1. Eye contact whilst meeting and conversing. Trust me. I know it can be scary, but buckle up kid, life is terrifying!

2. Speak from a Smile.

3. Sing from a Smile (or at least an inner smile).

4. Listen to surroundings, that is all that is relevant.

5. If you feel that you should do something, Do it.

6. Push through anxieties for new experiences. Do not believe everything you think, but do pay attention to how you feel whilst contemplating said thought. You know if you know!

7. Push forwards! In every sense of the word. If you feel down and out, push forwards to the next step and focus only on that next step.

7a) ALSO Literally at Jam nights or Open mics or choir meetings or theatre rehearsals! Do it, If you are looking to catch an organiser’s eye do not be afraid to be a tad more in their face than you or I would naturally feel comfortable with. We all have extremely short attention spans nowadays so there could be a chance the organiser or MC has or will forget about you. Even if you know them personally!

8) Let go and kiss all of the frogs! It really doesn’t matter if ideas suck; Think of them as the frogs on your path to the Prince or Princess or whatever you’ll find at the end of your rainbow!

9) Sing/ Play/ Create/ everyday! One way or another.

10) Daily practise! < This guy!!!!

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Song of the day! Countdown to 2015. Don’t look back in Anger, Love.

I managed to sit still long enough today to watch a BBC Alba doc about Amy Winehouse. It saw her perform at some random Irish festival and showed a really cool interview where she spoke extremely freely.

It was amazing to hear her talking about all the greats like Sarah Vaughn, Monk, Ella, Kim Burrell and Carleen Anderson. Amy’s knowledge, sheer curiosity and wonder about music seemed infectious. I would have loved the chance to chill and chat with her. (Obv). She was listing off, literally, all of my faves.

Specifically Amy gushed around Carleen’s version of the Oasis track ‘Don’t look back in Anger’.

I owe Amy an thankyou for reminding me of this bangin cover. At the moment this track carries a heavy significance to lots of feelings.

Especially after such crazy times in 2013/2014.

Carleen really gives this track a different edge, and I LOVE IT. The story is moving and her choices are perfection.

I know lots of people around me have been feeling a bit unhinged the last couple of years, but since being back from NY my peeps vibes have changed! Everyone seems content and chilled after losing their shit for the last 18 months haha.

2015 is going to be the one! Oh YES. Get ready!

So all my loves, Don’t look back in Anger.

You hear me say?

Luis Enrique Rivera Cuyar

Chilled 2014 Playlist

I discovered the joy of youtube playlists this year so I thought Id share the one I probably nurture the most.

I discovered the joy of youtube playlists this year so I thought Id share the one I probably nurture the most.



Dennis Coffey feat. Mayer Hawthorne – All Your Goodies Are Gone (Shigeto Remix)


Gladys Knight – Grapevine (Mr. Carmack Remix)


Ashtraynutz – City Life (Moods Remix)


Aaliyah – One In A Million (Urban Noize Remix)


The Notorious B.I.G. – One More Chance (Woody Remix) feat. Carlitta Durand


Destiny’s Child – Cater 2 U (Carling Ruse vs. Ruddyp Remix)


Justin Timberlake – My Love (Bear//Face Remix)


Consequence – G.O.O.D. Music (feat. Common & Talib Kweli)


OMN – Tonight


Chris Malinchak – So Into You


Mattison – Predictions (StewRat Bootleg)


Lindsay Lowend and Jonah Baseball – Should Be


Sade – Cherish the Day (Tuned to A-432 hz Universal Resonant Frequency)


Miguel – Sure Thing (Wiskim Remix)

15. n/a


Rihanna – Stay (Marius Hörsturz Edit)


Hiatus Kaiyote – Nakamarra ft. Q-Tip


The xx – Reconsider (Jamie xx Remix)


Oscar Isaac – Fare thee well Orignal soundtrack (Inside Llewyn Davis)


Da-P x Tigerblood – Rock U (SevnthWonder Edit)


Sam Smith – Stay With Me


Charles Bradley – Why Is It So Hard (Live on KEXP)


Janelle Monae – Primetime ft. Miguel (Chloe Martini Remix)


Naughty Boy – La La La (Jarreau Vandal Remix) [Free Download]


Chance The Rapper – Wonderful Everyday: Arthur ft. The Social Experiment


Don’t Wait (Remix) – Mapei, Chance The Rapper & The Social Experiment


Cory Henry Plays Gnarles Barkley’s “Crazy” feat. Chantae Cann


James Vincent McMorrow – Glacier (Atu Remix)


Raury – Cigarette Song (Snakehips Remix)


Nipsey Hussle – Creep


D’Angelo – Untitled (How Does It Feel)


Aretha Franklin – Tiny Sparrow (LIVE!)


The Two Become One (For Paula)


Soul Square – Trippin’ (feat. Blezz)


Soul Square – Love break (ft. Fazz)


Epidemic “Poisonous Love” (Produced By Esco)


Love Juju #1


Q-Tip – You

❤ xxxxxx