Help me Smash the Fear

Hey yo

My stage fright has come back…. My fright to sing at all in front of anyone actually, is back with a vengeance.

Last friday, I was hanging out with my friend and her boyfriend and his mates. She is from Canada, He is from Barbados as are his friends and one of the guy’s girlfriend’s is Greek.

The only reason their nationalities are important is because I was inspired and a tiny bit jealous at how free they all are. I mean free as in confident, & not fucked up, not particularly self conscious and incredibly cool & light to chat with. Some of them are pretty musical and play guitar and sing etc etc…

My friend pulls out the guitar and starts to sing, in fact, SHE asked US if we would mind if she played for us. WHOAH, GO GIRL. She is super flipping cool and it really is true that Canadians are safe as fucccckkk. ANYWAY

She does her thing and is great, she has a great musical ear and her playing was just perfect. Then one of the guys does the same thing! In my mind I was freaking out in case they asked me to sing and I couldn’t even join in when I knew one of the songs, I was frozen stiff scared.

what the helllllll man, what is wrong with me! (don’t answer that)


Then the greek goddess puts on Solange…. there was no stopping me! I did not care anymore and we were dancing and singing at the top of our voices trying to lure the others to join us but they would not haha… too busy shooting shit in the kitchen to dance around with these 2 pumped up on girl power girls. She then puts on more rnb bangers and all 3 of us girls were singing at the top of our voices and pretending we were a girlband. (although I think we would smash it in a girlband IRL)

If the music is loud, I WILL sing loud but if I think people are actually listening to me…. I freeze and the anxiety that cripples a lot of my daily life comes along with it’s mate ‘stage fright’

I love my british friends, obviously, but the subtle (or not so in some cases) cynicism and  uptightness is pretty damaging to artistic types….the ones who maybe don’t have the gene that is the ‘self big up’ thing. i.e me

I am guilty of it myself! People with guitars at parties back in the day used to grate on my snobbery and would encourage a certain dickishness to come out in my head. Others who felt the same would conjoin together in some sort of dick off circle, judging & sending bad vibes.

In reality, this person (regardless of their skill or playing ability or even in some cases ability to hear that the guitar is OUT OF TUNE) is sharing something in that moment that is pure and unashamed and pretty beautiful actually.


This all may sound super obvious to you nice people out there, but I have a proper music snob in my head.

Luckily, over the last few years it has started to soften and I now just think people are beautiful and sweet for wanting to share whatever they are feeling at that moment in time whether it is through music or poetry or drawing or art or whatevs.

You wana share with me your weird and wonderful thoughts then please send them over to me!

So in light of all this waffling on

Here is a video i have been sitting on for a while of my first open mic I ever did with original material


Both of the original pieces in this vid have moved along to different versions so are a bit null in void BUT it doesn’t matter. This is what they were then and hopefully when I get some up to date confidence in me right here right now you can hear where they travelled to!

Alex and Andrew Parsegian first session JUNE 2015 BK, NYC

Another reason to love Greenhouse Holistic BK

I met this wonderful human being in Yoga class!

Great things will happen!


Song of the day! Maxwell (again)

Today I have been singing NON stop, I feel sorry for my poor nan who has been trying to get on with her usual daily routine of washing clothes, potterin and gardening. ‘You’re in good voice this morning’ is what she said to me. Who knows what that means, she speaks pretty thick saaaaf london chat and sometimes it may aswel be another language haha.

I love to sing this song after studying it profusely when writing my own stuff whilst staying in NYC.

Maxwell is an amazing vocalist and songwriter, and is never far from beautifully gifted instrumentalists that ensure he keeps getting better and better!

His blacksummersnight album is one of my favourites of all time and the lineup of the backline is stellar!

Song of the Day and Gig review – Robert Glasper Experiment and Ledisi.

So I had the honor of attending the Beacon Theatre for Ledisi’s ‘Truth’ tour on Weds 30th April. Now I am not going to lie, because of the brutal rainfall of that day, I had a couple of moments of ‘Really?! I am going to go outside again, get drenched AGAIN…?!?!?!’ But my gosh I am SO glad I soldiered through and made the long long trip from Bushwick to 75th and Broadway.

My initial pull to attending this gig was that The Robert Glasper Experiment were also on the bill, and Black Radio is in my top 5 albums of all time, so I wasn’t about to miss the chance to witness this incredible combination of artists.

I was not disappointed.

For roughly an hour I was washed over with the most incredible Jazz, Hip Hop sounding melodic loveliness I have ever heard live. If you ever get the chance to see these guys, then absolutely 100% jump on that ship, walk that river, swim that ocean and make it happen! Your brain, and soul will thank you. From Glasper on the keys creating such a warm padding of bliss, to the drummer (sorry I forget his name – But it wasn’t Chris Dave) TEARING it up, and not forgetting the legendary Derrick Hodge rinsing his bass to the ground and back up again, it really was one of the best musical moments of my life!

But nothing could have prepared me for what came next.

Enter the phenomenal Ledisi. Continue reading “Song of the Day and Gig review – Robert Glasper Experiment and Ledisi.”

Musiq SoulChild gig review and Song of the Day!

I have been a fan of Musiq SoulChild for a while now and his first album has rarely left the CD player for longer than a day back home. So I was so excited to go and see him perform and see his artistry in the flesh. He could be the greatest songwriter of the contemporary RnB genre, especially in love and relationships. He has honed his voice and storytelling in a way that appeals to males and females equally.

I have to say how surprised I was at the audience at the Musiq gig. They were extremely unforgiving and even booed at one point! I mean, I get it, he didn’t sing the songs exactly how they sound on his albums and he did talk for quite a while about his philosophy on love and relationships, but nonetheless it was still a great show and he for sure has some vocal chops that deserved appreciation over critique. Continue reading “Musiq SoulChild gig review and Song of the Day!”

Mint Condition

Song of the day! (not to be missed bonus clip too!)

Today my song of the day is from the amazing Mint Condition, who I am seeing at BB king’s Blues Bar on Friday. I could not be more excited, I am a fairly new fan but have definitely made a point of brushing up on as much of the catalogue as I can find!

Black Radio, THE Robert Glasper album (Absolutely banging album, I would highly recommend if you haven’t heard it already) is what led me to this prolific band. Stokley features on what could be the best song on the album (tough call!)


See an absolute dream collective in this video above…

Beyonce + Stokley Williams, Chris Dave + Robert Glasper.

This video is amazing for so many reasons but mainly it is so refreshing to see Beyonce in a real musician jam just letting it all go and adlibbing it out! The energy of this video is incredible.